My third year: multiple contradictions

and so it begins and i'm sweating like a pig. i'm on the 5th floor of the sfu library building, I've decided in part what i'm taking for the first year, exploring mass communications, introductory spanish, intro to sociology. i'm following in some guy on youtubes crusade against the capital letter, it's so elitist. one thing that i've realized is that the women at this university are much more beautiful than at ucfv. like i've say many times today, i'm finally at a real university. i really wish i had more time even thought i live in the present. i wish i could do so many more things than peterly possible. i'm high, decided to bring a cookie it's making the day go by faster, to be honest there is surprisingly not a hell of a lot to to do here, especailly when there are no classes for me to go to. it is summer, hence the sweating like a pig. i realize that i really suck at writing interesting stuff. i've been out of prectice for a long time now. google really needs to buy facebook, and i wish google wasn't publicly traded, and that pot was legal. what i meant with the time thing earlyer is that prioritys change because they have to, and that i will always have contradicting goals and ambitions, i'm at war with myself. so far three of my family members have watched one of my youtube videos, i don;t know what to feel about this. like i want to go to the gym so i can have lots of sex with beautiful women, i want my family to be materially rich even though i have everything i need, i want to be married one day but don't believe in monogamy, i love kids but am conflicted over having biological children, sometimes i have discipline, patience, and sometime not, i am a loner who needs others, i am haunted and equally fascinated by religion, content and discontent within a matter of seconds, see what i mean. i can't spent the rest of my life deciding on things witch can't be decided in my life time, life is short, i have to make choices about my priorities.